This is a random post about nothing. Just that its been a long hard ride. I'm starting to get a little tired. I really hope that I can finish it. You see the rest of my life is a long time. But i'm not even sure what that really means. Life, Long, Ride, Finish, all words in a sentence, on a computer, on a server, some where in NY, nothing. If i die now thats what I leave. A simple paper trail and a few fading photos. So I ride on. Not for glory. But for happiness....or the pursuit there of...damn founding fathers...heard that line so many times it kind of got stuck in there some how. I wish i had an answer, but i don't, i just said I was looking for happiness...i don't even know what that is...well i have a rough idea...her name is christina...she makes me happy...but is that it...is that all i have going....even programming...yea it makes my brain busy...but it doesnt bring me any real joy...its not a challenge anymore...whatever the project...i know i can do it...so its losing its flare...maybe i'll try for rocket science or something...i dont know...but its getting long ....and im still riding...and i'm not sure where the end is...maybe thats why I keep riding ...just for the heck of it...just to see where I end up...just to see where we all end up...but i wonder how long curiosity can keep me motivated....well....i guess we'll see....this post sounds kinda depressing...its not though...i'm content...life is good...better than most...i have nothing to complain about...but i think thats why im searching...im out of challenges....i guess i'll have to find a new way to entertain myself...hehe funny isn't it?...life....it makes me laugh....a lot like that christina girl...she is still a challenge...the only one now...i have a feeling she always will be ...i suppose thats a damn good reason to pick up the pace and peddal a little faster....either way...i'll keep on riding.