I've been surfing for a long time. Aimlessly. Browsing. Searching. Indexing. Viewing. Commenting. I still haven't figured out, I still haven't found it. An answer, a solution, a resolution to a complex problem that scratches my brain a few times a day and reminds me to think some more. I have no idea what my purpose is. Well I suppose I have an idea. I just don't know what it is. Its not that I'm looking for a reason to live. I have lots of those. Life is a lot of fun. I have a great girl and I like my work. But I wonder what good I can possibly contribute to the rest of humanity. No thats not it, thats a little to grand for me. I just wonder, I guess, is this it? Will I work and then die. Now don't get me wrong, I know life on earth is only the beginning, there is more. But thats a whole nother story and line of thought. of course I suppose in a lot of ways their very closely intertwined. Its a whole game. A mosh of this and a mish of that. I'm just searching for my own happiness I guess, but its not that I'm even sad. I just want to do something before I die. Its not that I want the world to acknowledge me, or that i need to "leave my mark". I would be happy knowing that I accomplished something...even If I was the only one who knew. So I guess I'll work on that. Just moving forward. Just finishing it. Just getting it done. Now if I only knew what it was. I don't think I'm destined for greatness, or even to accomplish great things. But I do believe we all have that potential, and its not a matter of physical or practical application. But more about random luck, motiviation, and a good idea. Who knows. Like I said....aw screw it....I don't even know what I'm talking about...On with life.