The more and more that I go through life the more and more that I realize how funny it is...not in a haha i'm laughing my arse off way. But more in a here we go again way. There's things about me and my life that I wish didn't happen. I suppose everyone has at least a few of those. I'm no exception. But part of the comedy...well really more irony of life that i've disocovered is that you can always try and make your life better. When is it enough? How do we as humans reach contentment? Or is there no contentment? ...is that our nature....we reach the moon so we go for mars...we reach mars we start jumping through worm holes?....yea its really only a matter of time...maybe not the worm hole part...but the reaching for something more...and lets even look at it on a smaller scale...things like cars....we make them faster...more luxurious with traction control and infared windshield vision. But really....when is it enough....can one person ever be content with there life....now heres where I come in as the exception....I'm content...i'm happy...im cruising along...maybe to my own destruction...but the top is down and the wind is blowing in my hair so I barely here the train about to side swipe me....so its ok...at least for now...i'm happy...but I feel like those around me aren't...i keep aspiring to be something, to do something but there is nothing i want to aspire to be...there are somethings i want to do...but for my own enjoyment....i'm not trying to cure cancer...just write some nifty web applications for fun....not that curing cancer isn't important...because it is...very important...but i guess whay i'm trying to say is that there are 50 million sources, 50 million times a day telling me to do this or do that....to be something...to fix this about me or correct that in my life....because of this i feel like that contentment i used to have is being disrupted...like theres nothing i can do to make it good enough for everyone else....it some point you almost want to just look at the sun setting in the west and wait for that train to hit you from the east....but you don't ...you keep driving...ready to brake for the next set of railroad tracks....and because of that I feel like I'm missing the sunsets....All i get is the ocassional glance....but you know...i dont mind so much...as long as my passengers get to stare at it for the whole ride and not worry about the tracks ahead....I suppose then...that tension...it just might be worth it...or then again am I just fooling myself into thinking that there are even train tracks ahead....or am I just watching for something that doesn't even exist....oh well....i guess we'll see....i'll just keep on crusin' along...and not bother looking at the sunset.