There are lots of things that I wish I'd done differently. Mostly regarding other people. I know I can pull that old "its made me who I am" crap. But that's what those excuses are....crap....its not that I'm not happy with who I am today, I guess I just wish I wasn't still haunted with those decisions. Don't get me wrong, I haven't killed anybody or anything, I'm not really that bad of a guy. But the guy I used to be isn't exactly good. I wish I wasn't stuck being reminded of all the things I've messed up. But I suppose that I deserve it, It's the cost for the decisions I made, I'm just tired, tired of cleaning up, making up for, all of those things, and I know I need to do more. It will be a long time before all of this is resolved. But I guess time will tell. In the meantime I can always be happy about the people I have now. At the very least I'll do my best to be the best I can for them. Peace.